Firstly, thanks to Clare and Rebecca for their recent comments.
I find it amazing how much my feelings about my work change on a weekly/daily/hourly basis. Last week, I was feeling positive about it. I felt I had some sort of vague direction with regards to what I was doing and that my ideas were going someway to matching up with what I was making.
Then Monday came about and the first thing that came into my head when I looked through my recent work was the word ‘no’. I’m normally quite good at working through these moments by just making work and seeing what happens, but I’ve found myself disagreeing with everything that I’ve done and written this week and it’s starting to do my head in a little. I think I’m contradicting myself with what I’m writing in my notebook about my work and what I’m actually putting onto canvas and paper. It’s a bit like cheating myself by saying that through the layers in my work I’m reducing the content and simplifying things, and then I go and overcomplicate my work with too many brushstrokes. I think I got to this stage by trying to write a statement about my work, but that’s another matter, and has been a good process.
