For the first time in a long time I have been in the studio everyday this week. I am having a hard time making anything at the moment so it has been really good just to be here and to allow myself to feel awkward and frustrated – I tell myself that it is part of ‘the process’.
Today I have mainly been moving things around in order to clear some space. The studio continues to be inhabited by large cardboard boxes that contain the contents of what were my bookshelves, walls and studio in London. Sometimes I feel very aware of the restrictions of subletting a studio rather than it being “mine”, of course this would not be such an issue if I did not add so many of my own things to an already furnished space! However the moving and sorting is good and it feels as though I might soon have space to breath and to make new things.
As a result of moving one of chairs I noticed something immediately outside the studio window that I had not paid attention to before – a flagpole, actually one of a number of flagpoles that run along the boundary of the industrial estate where the studio is. There is no flag flying (I don’t think I have ever seen one), I am thinking about making a one …
For three days my computer could (would?) not pick up the internet connection here. It has been interesting to be here with the distractions it offers – radio, email, Skype, internet. (An internet search on ‘distraction’ produced 41,000,000 hits in 0.23 seconds.). I am going to see if I can get out of the habit of coming here and immediately turning the computer on. Space is not just physical!
Yesterday I un-packed an unfinished patchwork and have put it up on the wall. It was packed up when I moved out my studio in West Norwood (2010). I have also started to polish the additional ring shaped cake tins that I have been collecting since my residency here (2009). I think (hope?!) that my re-engagement with these pieces is a sign that there is some untapped potential in them.
Had a really good meeting with Anna and Ingrid after Ingrid emailed with details of a residency that would give us the opportunity to develop our Sandcastles in Greece project. I am delighted that they both want to continue with the idea. It has been a long time since I worked on a collaborative project and I think it could be very successful (and enjoyable).
It is good to be back in the studio after a long break. I need to be more disciplined about coming here over the next couple of weeks and while I do not have the structure of a school timetable to order my week.
Things I can get on with:
1. polishing the cake tins that I have collected over the last few months.
2. making some banners from the second hand shirts that I brought from London
3. trying other ‘sun prints’ – the glass decanter stoppers did not make good images. I am rather disappointed about this as they cast great shadows. What would happen if I placed them on photographic paper and used an old fashioned photographic enlarger and developing chemicals??
4. more shadow drawings
5. updating my website!! This really needs to be done but writing a new artists statement is not easy.
6. BEING AT THE STUDIO AND LETTING THINGS HAPPEN …
The week in London went very quickly. It was very different being there with someone else – I am not so used to traveling with a partner …
My piece at Clifford Chance looked good. They even pressed it before it was hung! I was very pleased to see that it was hung on one of the polished plaster walls rather than the one painted with matt emulsion. The opening was an enjoyable evening, towards the end I met a lawyer (who had previously been a doctor!) and was both delighted and surprised to learn that he reads this blog. It was the first time that I have met and ‘unknown’ reader.
This is exactly the kind of ‘gay’ exhibition that I like – with work that can be openly gay or lesbian but which must be interesting and high quality. I find it very difficult to write (or even think) about ‘gay sensibility’ in my own or others’ work. I have the sense that many of the artists exhibiting would not call themselves a gay or lesbian artist, rather an artist who is gay or lesbian.
Seeing the catalogue made me realise that I really need to work out what I am going to do about images of my work. The picture in the catalogue is not very good at all. Perhaps it is time that I started to have my work professionally photographed. I certainly need to look again at how other installation artists photograph their work. My work is often an awkward size and a difficult material … maybe I should try to make work that is easier to photograph!
Henry Moore’s Late Large Forms at Gagosian was my favourite of the other shows I saw. It was wonderful to be able to be so close to sculptures of that scale and beauty. Tucked around a far corner of one of the enormous galleries was a modest acrylic wall mounted cabinet containing maquettes, models and natural forms Moore referred to – a brilliant and subtle piece of curating. Thinking about it now, it was really nice to walk in to a gallery and see the work without labels, without a press release, without any (noticeable) text.
I am very pleased to say that I passed the SFI test, and that I have found a part time course to continue with. The new course is two mornings a week which I think will suit me – I can have some full days here at the studio and I know that I am far more alert in the morning than I am in the evening! I have to find ways to keep practicing my Swedish over the summer break as I already feel that a week in London has ‘corrupted’ what I have learnt.
It was great to arrive back in Stockholm and find that the authorities here have validated my British degrees. I was genuinely concerned that the lack of documentation regarding my Art & Social Context degree could become a problem, thankfully my own account of the course content and the few traces I found were enough and now I have an official Swedish document when I apply for work and funding etc.
Staying with an artist friend in London gave us the chance to talk in way that I just can’t/ don’t on the phone. We have been talking about art, in one way or another, for the 15 years we’ve known each other. I also visited an artist friend who was my tutor over 20 years ago. They are both wonderfully inspiring and interesting people (in very different ways) and I want do more to keep in touch with both of them. I am starting to make friends here however I really appreciate chatting with people who know me well.
My first time at the studio after what feels likes ages. I discover that I have nothing really for lunch here. The last ten days have been blend of friends coming to visit and what hopefully will be my final tests at SFI school. It is good to be back here even if I am (only?) sitting at the computer and writing this blog. This week is also busy with a couple of social events and trips to degree shows, and then I’ll be in London for a week for the opening of the Pride show at Clifford Chance.
I have been thinking a great deal about how should organise my time once I am finished at SFI. There is a further ‘introductory’ language course that I want to take however I think that the part-time evening course might be the best option for me. Ideally I would like to be in the studio a couple of full days every week so that I can focus more of my energy on my practice again. I am also going to see if I can get a half time work placement with a gallery or museum. I want to start learn a bit more Swedish art speak! This is all on the assumption that I passed last week’s tests!
We, Alex and I, are waiting to hear back from the management board at the studio if Alex is able to extend her subletting period. If she is not able to she has suggested that we share the studio which is a good idea although I have become very used to having the place to myself. Sharing my studio in London with Jodi worked very well and I am sure I could easily share with Alex – I just need to find somewhere to put all my stuff!
Any new course I do will start in August at the soonest so I am looking forward to at least one month with more and longer days here. Right now I want to see I can find some interesting glass objects so that I can have a play with the packet of Sunography Paper I picked up at Moderna Museet …
My piece for the Clifford Chance show is all packed up and almost ready to go. I have bought a couple of small hooks and want to spray them white but it is not easy buying spray paint here. Which in itself is interesting, however it is even more interesting to me as I live in the flat directly above a man who has just written a book about Stockholm’s zero tolerance strategy towards graffiti. So if I see him this evening I will ask if the strategy includes making it virtually impossible to buy spray paint.
My six-month term of subletting is almost at an end and I have been talking with Alex about what to do. It is a tricky situation. According to the studio’s rules Alex does not have the option to sublet for more than one year (which she has already done) however her university course is not yet finished, and as soon as it is she wants to have her own studio back. We have talked about sharing the studio when she comes back (which is relatively easy to arrange). Of course the rules about subletting can be changed however it requires a meeting of the management board and although it is only the end of May people are already starting to take holidays. We hope to work something out which suits everyone. I am quite pleased to learn that the board has time limits on sublets (as many housing associations here do too) as it stops people becoming kinds of private (absentee) landlords. Is it perverse to appreciate a system even if it does not work in my favour?
Next week I take the final SFI (basic Swedish language course) test. If I pass then it means that I can choose to take a more advanced course, if I do not pass then I can take the test again in August. I really hope that I pass, it has been great to have all this tuition for free (for which I thank the Swedish tax payer) however it feels like time to get on with being in the studio and finding some part-time work. Some of my school friends have said that if they do not find work that they will continue studying half a day throughout the week and part of me thinks that I should do the same. However I do have a job – being an artist – and studying every morning from 8.00-12.00 is not good for my studio practice. I need to remember that even if I do not make money from my practice it is still my work.
I want to get on with my work.
I need to get on with my work!!
