At the studio on Friday – giving the model trains a test run – when Tine mentioned that her sabbatical cover has fallen through and her college have asked her if see knows anyone who could step in and do it. She stopped half was through her sentence and just looked at me … do I want to do it?
Even if she puts me forward there’s no guarantee I’ll get it – though I was second choice for a very similar position at the same college about a year ago (I’d be working alongside the woman who was first choice!). It’s not what I had in mind at all but seems like too good an opportunity to pass up.
In my mind I was going to continue with my current part-time work (in retail) until late spring 2009 then head off to Stockholm. Now I have the possibility of doing something much more interesting and simply going to Stockholm a couple of months later than I’d imagined. Why did I even ask for the weekend to think about it??! Why can’t I recognise a ‘no-brainer’?
Do I have what it takes to be a ‘London Artist’?
I’ve convinced myself that ‘London Artists’ are breed to themselves – they have to be to survive in this city. Another way of looking at this is to ask if I want to be a ‘London Artist’. Time away form this city might give me more insight – there are times when I love being here, love the sheer scale of the art-scene in all it’s diversity, love the buzz and the hype. Then there are other times when I feel so distant form all that that I wonder what I’m still doing here.
I love what I do, does it matter where I do it?
If I have a better quality of life will I be a better artist?
What is commitment?
Autumn seems to be the right season for a bit of a review and research ….
