I just lost my post before I uploaded it. So here follows the fragmented half remembered version.
Lack of blog entries recently is because I got pregnant again and the first few weeks were not kind to me so my creative side sort of shut down for a bit.
I have agreed to rent a shared studio space somewhere that's not even built yet but I'm optimistic and sure this will kick start my practice with a new found energy. Plus there's recently been a glut of stuff to apply for so I'm metaphorically sharpening the pencils.
Had a great chat with Christina Bryant yesterday, seldom do I have the opportunity to discuss creative practice with anyone, so going home a few key thoughts popped in.
Like what I'm motivated by. What themes keep coming back. A new one is ESCAPE. I say new, but I think it's always been there, it's just now I recognise it and can name it. Escape like, get out of it, get out of my head, bliss, euphoria. I think that's what I'm trying to convey often in my work. And it comes from strange places like flyovers and twilight scenes. As a child I had some magical fantastical dreams that I still remember and want to make real. It's about wonder but also about release at the same time. Being parent means you are trapped to some degree (even if a full time job previously fulfilled this function). So does everything seem more compressed, more urgent, more requiring of an escape now? I then dreamt my son was holding a box, and there was something trapped in it.
I couldn't sleep last night as so many thoughts were buzzing round, another one came that said are artists people who make real or imagined dreams a reality? I'm sure that's come from somewhere else. But just the sheer extent with which I can now see myself dreaming up new things, no limits, it was very liberating.
I'm going to let that settle.