..life's sections..
… yesterday I read a photographer's interview in which he pointed out that only 20% of his time is spent taking photographs, the rest on administration and research… Well. it is much the same with making art work. At the moment I am in one of those uncomfortable transition periods where projects are coming along, but where there is no sign of their realization yet. So at the moment satisfaction levels are very low, but inspiration is beginning to ferment, a little more sugar and ideas should rise ready to become solid and tangible..
One problem is that I have produced so little in the past 6 months that now the internal need to leap and explode into action has grown disproportionate to time, finances and energy available.
I will make one more list and throw the coals into the fires and get some of these projects going. The urgency is only increasing daily.
The hunger for making art.
Relationships should nourish one's energy resources not deplete them, should they not? Well, I am in the final throes of making my way back up from the depths of life's muddles, this week sees 2 more deadlines for projects that I really want to be involved in and then I can begin to make direct plans for "A Dungbeetle and Sisyphus". And get my camera out for "Idioms" and advertise for Artist Assistants for May's preparations for my St Luke's project, and plan my performance for Cologne.
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In the meantime I recommend that you take a look at: http://cressidakocienski.blogspot.com/'
That will give you inspiration and things to think about.
(for some reason there is a tiny problem: you need to manually delete this ' yes that little thing ' this one' ' ' ' at the end of the blog address, the same goes for my personal blog address with blogspot, too. For some reason a tiny: ' adds itself to the link and become indelible for me. So.. delete the ' at the end… Then the links will work flawlessly.)
Easter
My most immediate creative output today will be the baking of bread (sweet white yeast bread) in the shape of Easter Rabbits…
I have just received an invitation to take myself and my art to Cologne and perform in May. Perform…
Well when I described myself as artist who works with performance I hadn't really imagined someone would ask me to come and perform in a gallery. … me on stage being an artist… I hadn't really thought about it very much…
The sensation is equal to the one the rabbit experiences when it sees the car …. That was my first response.
Here is the second response:
Great opportunity !!! I am looking forward to coming up with a plan.
For now I am going back to baking Easter Rabbits; and meeting Tomas Harold, the 'Up and Coming Curator', in a couple of hours..
Now this was a roller coaster of a fortnight!
Interviews for postgraduate programs at both the Royal College and at Goldsmiths, art worries, stage fright in relation to the invitation to make work for St. Luke's / Bombed out church in Liverpool.
Thinking, thinking, and rethinking, finally being met with an epiphany whilst in the bath last night. "If the mountain isn't coming to me then I will just go to the mountain" Or something like that…
So I shall let you in, into my cryptic thinking in the next days. In the meantime I will try and formulate it all and edit it into a manageable size.
Enjoy your Easter Holidays, with or without beautifully hand colored eggs. Unfortunately boiled eggs make me nauseous.. What a shame.
The bad news: the RCA sent me a rejection letter on deceptively hight quality stationery.
The enormous, massive relief: Golsmiths invited me unconditionally to come and study on their Masters Program from this autumn.
Unconditionally has to be my favorite word, if I would be offered same terms in romance then life would be complete.
Unconditionally is just such a character and life affirming attitude. And most gratefully received.
Good Day and Good Easter. Aim high…
(Perhaps I need to curtail my life-coaching advices.. Before I turn into Eckhart Toll, or some other such similar lifestyle Guru. But I can't help myself: Don't be lazy!)
It's been a dung-beetle type of day…
I spare you the details; tomorrow I am with Mersey Film and Video figuring out Dvd Studio Pro to re-emerge the most knowledgeable Jack-Of-All-Trades around.
This evening I saw Shobana Jeyasingh Dance Company, skilled, but why do I feel that I have a but to utter… They didn't capture me fully, something wasn't there.
Ideas are breeding, I feel like an oversized petri dish… It's brimming in here, just add some more sugar solution and it will just burst the lid right off, off this culture breeding machine that I am…
Important reminder to self:
must remember that important art meetings start at 5.30pm even if that is a rather impossible time for anyone to attend who works until exactly 5.30pm…
I was too sure that just nobody would schedule a meeting until the standard starting time of 6.30pm that none of my memory cells remembered 5.30 and I arrived an hour too late and outright missed it….
Write it down on the back of the hand next time!
