I really do need to be offered an income for my work now, it’s beyond ridiculous that 9 months from my initial cry for help no one seems to be capable of preventing me from falling over the edge into fiscal ruin.
An envelope with ACE logo dropped though the letterbox and sat for a couple of days unopened.
Another failed funding attempt. And apparently, Hackspace have sabotaged the free space we have use of. They put their foot in with the council, so as I’ve been planning to continue with exhibitions and events, I’ve been warned that we may have to pay to use a derelict space. If that happens, we won’t be able to use it. So let’s hope that doesn’t happen.
I spent a couple of days applying for work in the University library, but when I mention this, already there are those that are putting me down. “Loads of people apply for those kinds of jobs”. People seem determined to do nothing but bring me down. Don’t get any grand ideas, Helen, you don’t deserve to get anywhere in life.
I used to be so determined, so defiant, I would oppose all of this oppression, discrimination, and be successful, but I’m just getting nothing but negativity and bad luck at every turn.
And I’m starting to think it’s because I’m honest about being a single parent. I feel like Oliver bloody Twist. Constantly humbly asking merely to be paid, and the answer is always “No”.
I need a paid salary asap. It’d solve everything. But it doesn’t mean I’ll get what I really need.
