i sometimes would like to be able to “send via thought transfer” my thoughts about the moment. last night was the most recent occurance of this. as i sat listening to music with pizza cooking and wine breathing i really would have liked to simply download what i was thinking. i really wanted to download about the day i’d had and how happy i felt.
there’s a lot of work currently being completed at the studio. yesterday was another opportunity to play with my picture taking and processing skills. i’m enjoying this opportunity a lot and i’m realising that i now have quite a good knowledge of photoshop. so much so that i’m returning to my photobox gallery with the intention of making images for print and sale. i do like the mine field of resolution and quality and image size connected with digital image making. i’m always troubled by the starting resolution. ha ha ! it no longer matters as i can manipulate and construct to my heart’s content.
after the photoshot, there was a bit of a buzz and i was whisked up into the energy and before i knew it i was out with three on a picnic and walkabout, to explore and observe and generally relax and eat and talk, while amusing with observations and sketch making. one of the little video sketches i made is at the bottom of this post.
if only i could have downloaded my thoughts last night. this afternoon i do feel slightly tired and below par and it’s four oclock and i’ve just sneezed. have you seen the sneezing panda video on you tube?
i’m still enjoying the space to play with my skill base, mucking about with image, video, web and other things as yet to be done. it does however niggle me that it doesn’t feel worthy enough. worthy enough? worthy enough to attract funding. i am of course still troubled by my sub conscious. it is programmed in such a way that it runs in sync with the conscious disability to at times leave me feeling worn out and useless.
fortunately for me i have a project that does feel worthy and does have interest and does have potential and i’m looking forward to getting to the point where i can do what i want with it. it does strike me as interesting how slow these things progress. i think i am aware that at the beginning of anything, it appears slow. i’m always amazed at how long the journey to somewhere is, only to be self contradicted on the return leg.
oh and talking of return legs, the chap with the kite. his filming project appears to be turning into a collaborative project and i’m starting to get caught up in the whole thing of what to do with the footage and what to make and what to communicate and all those other things one gets to consider when one sets out to do something. luckily i remember the kiss rule.
and so i have coffee and write and all the tension wains. well most of it, last night was fun and they all did come back to mine and we did all get on well, well except for two of them. they seemed to eat and crash out really quickly, their playful romping during the afternoon certainly taking it out of them.
i might have to disagree with hockney for a moment. sometimes after head down doing, the need to look up and be reflective is necessary. i say that as i need to do that myself. i have done that recently to see that without intention of doing anything, i have actually done things, simply because i want to. a bit like the electro-therapied pianist who kept playing.
i have several lines of enquiry, and as such will always be working to an unreached resolution of the enquiry. however along the way there will be stations of completion, alongside the worthy project.
