the residency is complete. the studio have been really lovely and encouraging during a time where i have gone through a fair amount of movement in attitude and aspiration.
i know if i had got the residency in liverpool, that there would have been a fixed point to work towards, and actually what i needed was a break from fixed point journeying. as i work towards setting up my own fixed point to aim at, i have started to do things that i can do while striving to get to the point in the future. doesn’t sound earth breaking maybe, however for me it is. for me it’s a realisation and admittance of me and where i see myself relative to an undefined and ever present norm.
what i feel about me and the world isn’t possible to write down accurately.
so how to conclude this blog, i feel i need to. i have some uncompleted work that i’ll add to this blog, some unresolved investigations that i’ll add to this blog.
i feel optimistic that i am entering a period of time that will not have the kind of mentally dark horizon that i have been feeling until recently.
i am beginning to accept my limitations as i understand them slightly better now. i’m understanding that i also don’t have to broadcast the whole of the time. i’m actually not that clever enough to.
i accept that rules that i thought applied don’t anymore, as i am now in an evolved state from where i began, where those rules applied. if the rules don’t apply to me, how many other people don’t they apply to either?
i’ve recently uncovered the idea of counter revolution art. where revolution stands for challenging the status quo, counter revolution is against that, it’s pro everything staying as it is, with nothing being challenged or questioned. how much counter revolution art have you seen in your local dance centre this week?
where do i stand on revolution or counter revolution? well the projects i started persuing over the course of the residency can be viewed as counter revolution as i’m just making images to be enjoyed and inviting purchases of the work to be made. i still have some work to do the establish the channel of communication about purchase. i’ll add that to this blog once i’m done.
so the residency may be complete, however i still have work to do to complete the construction of this blog and i look forward to completing that construct.
