It’s funny how one thing can completely change a whole mindset.
I’m delighted to say that I have been awarded one of the a-n RE:view bursaries. Hooray!!! Suddenly I feel like I can conquer the world again!
In addition to this, watching David Bowie on BBC4 last night and hearing about how much of a big blag the success of Ziggy Stardust was initially in America – it is clear to me that:
Nobody really knows anything – I CAN JUST MAKE IT ALL UP!
YOU are no smarter than I am (well ok you may be but go with it for a moment)….. it is all a matter of PERCEPTION.
Please now perceive me winning the Turner Prize……
With the threat of BIG SNOW coming, my well planned week has been yet more messed up. I had been planning to go to Wysing:
http://www.wysingartscentre.org/whats_on/events/re…
which looked very exciting. I expect this will have to be replaced by a day of sledging.
Having been virtually tied to the computer writing up a proposal all week it will be nice to get some fresh (if chilly) air.
With only three working days left until Easter, preparations for Cicatrix Macula are getting a bit frantic – thank god for Hugh my trusty ‘technical advisor’ who has (as ever) come up trumps with the actualisation of my odd requests. The broom chariots are ready (and filling the playroom) – now the challenge will be to keep the kids off them till
http://www.thomasjohnbacon.com/2013/02/tempting-fa…
(am I plugging this too much?!)
just have to hope that the neighbours don’t call the police thinking there has been an incident…..
A much more productive week. And here i am torn – just written about Cicatrix Macula (paratus) which will be debuting at
a performance that I am doing in collaboration with Sally Lemsford….. see our SSoCiaL page….
www.a-n.co.uk/p/2599575
so feel like I have written this already! The rest of my time I have been frantically preparing my application for the RE:view bursary – fingers crossed as it is such a great opportunity. I have been having a break from #FridayFailure which has been good for mental health but not so good for attempting to get work exhibited. I am trying to be much more choosy now with things that I apply to – fast boat on my mind at all times.
1. I’m trying to get to the bottom of why I never seem to get anything done.
2. I am experimenting in ‘creative visualisation’.
I think the two may be connected.
possible answers to 1:
Reality of limited time.
Percieved reality of limited time.
Confused mind
Convinced myself I have a confused mind.
Indecision
The existance of too many decision requests coexisting in the same small space of time.
Too many ideas
The same ideas repeated ad infinitum to appear to be many.
Liking too many things
Being above averagely good at too many things but not world shatteringly, and exceptionally amazing at one thing that demands undivided attention.
An annoying combination of extreme overself confidence and crushing self doubt at the pointlessness of it all.
Limited funds
A ridiculous persistance in the idea of perfection.
Possible suggestions for 2.
Acceptance of time reality
Extremely detailed visual plan of activities to guide day and ensure achievement of goals.
Hold visions of finished works permanently in minds-eye at all times.
Cut picture of own head out and stick onto picture of Turner Prize winner’s body
Visualize myself as a serious being imparting pearls of wisdom inplace of irreverancies.
See that it’s only art.
Where to start?
Yesterday I spent a very enjoyable afternoon in Birmingham, where I had never been before (unless you count to watch football, which I don’t, as I was reading a book at the time) so I was very excited to experience what I had imagined was the mythical, ‘bullring’. With a slight disappointment at the lack of Javier Bardem in Matador costume to welcome me, I was pretty impressed.
A discussion group organised by and for a-n, it was a big mix of different artists and users of this site. At any artist gathering I always end up in awe of the diversity of knowledge of everyone at such events and invariably depart with a list of a thousand people and things to look up when I get home. Unfortunately it is impossible to talk to everyone and you could easily have spent the next week or so in highly interesting discussion with each and every person there.
The overiding thing that I got from this particular meeting though was a real sense of belief that WE CAN (and have to) MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.
WE HAVE TO BE SELF-ENABLING.
and that it is THROUGH NETWORKS OF PEOPLE THAT EXCITING AND AMAZING THINGS HAPPEN (if you make them)
Never before have I been so convinced in the theories of ‘making your own luck’ and self-fullfilling prophesy.
Now, like never before, it is a time to be brave.
