This week I have managed to prioritise stuff that isn’t URGENT but that is what I NEED to do.
In the hunt for some materials in my storeroom I found an embarrassing number of ‘unfinisheds’.
For my own sanity THIS HAS GOT TO STOP! I am forever teetering on the brink of ‘unresolved’. I fear this may be a form of cowardice. A lack of commitment to self. Or is it purely the fickelty of a flittering mind?
The dilemma of urgency is always the same. Mad rush to get something finished for an ‘event’ or ‘opportunity’ then when (for whatever reason) this urgency disappears, the work is put aside in favour of next emergency.
NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE.
I am going to work on this until it is complete. Whatever.
So with that momentous (and long overdue) decision accomplished, a sense of freedom descended. In this happy state, several fortuitous ideas developed of a more reflective and personal nature that would have been overlooked had I rushed the work through as intended.
I am realising that it is vital to grant yourself time to allow things to develop properly and instinctively, even when ‘making’ something with a conceptual basis – it is only doing this that will reveal depths and continuity to a body of work. In the daily rush of life – this seems to be an almost obscene indulgence but it is really a basic need. One that I need to indulge.
