I have been working on the finger stitching work for a while now and had begun to feel stuck, like it had reached a point where it had become stagnant. I felt like I no longer really felt connected to what I was doing. I had played around with the idea of just not doing it anymore but then that just felt like running away. So, I began asking myself- why don’t I feel connected? I think part of the reason was that throughout this work I have had to develop new technical photography skills, which not only slowed the creative process, but also meant that my focus was on the technical aspect of the work; not the critical engagement. I realise that as soon as that happened, the connection between myself and the work weakened. I was not engaged. Not good!
Ruth Claxton came to do an artist’s talk at college and I managed to get a tutorial with her. Having a conversation with someone who was fresh to my work was a really valuable experience. I realised that when I spoke to her about my work I was not only articulating the work to her, but also to myself. I began to understand again what I was actually exploring. Ruth suggested that I might try to push further with the stitches. Up to this point I had just been stitching straight lines. Very neat, very controlled. What would happen in the stitches were to overlap? Cover the whole hand? Connect parts of the hand?
I decided to take these questions on to move the work forward; but there was still a nagging at the back of my mind. To a certain extent I wondered whether my detachment to the final images was because they were secondary experiences. They were not the actual process of stitching. That process is so immersive and I wanted this to come through. I have played with the idea of performance, but I wonder if there really is a need for the presence of an audience? I am yet to actually explore this medium, and I may still explore it; but I have this week began experimenting with the immersive qualities of scale. This week I took some fresh shots of hand stitching in which I really pushed the stitches. Layering up and restricting movement. Today I printed out my first experiment at A1, and I was thrilled. The scale meant that the image became more immersive. It completely altered the viewing experience. I am hoping to maybe take the images bigger again, but as they are macro shots the detail is so important. We’ll see- I just need to give it a go and see what happens. As it stands at this point I am excited about this work again, which after doubting it so much, feels so good!!