i like significant dates. i like dates that have meaning. today being a politically important date, i’ll ignore it and plough on with my own world.
it’ll soon be three months since leaving the completed ba programme. in that time, i’ve shown a version of my degree show piece, filmed another version of the action and included it in a work in progress piece within the derby art fringe.
there are opportunities on the horizon and i’ve even been to see an ma show.
it’s been very bitty. not in a little britain way either.
this afternoon, i find myself with some time to reflect upon what i’ve done so far and how much i’ve enjoyed it all.
if i were tweeting, this line by line approach would be applauded, by those following. that is if they could see my tweets amongst the other 2349 tweets they are following. does that become politically edgy by it’s very nature? god, i don’t know.
if i were to do an ma, i’d need a project, a means to develop personally. if i were to do that now, what would it be about? potentially looking at how the ‘movements’ seem to be about personal development of thinking amongst those recognised in the largest sphere possible as artists. as they’ve gone through all that for us and even the yba’s using the media, what areas of research are we in small sphere of artists left to be able to research? oh – history. potentially discovering about explorers being outsiders and recognising that in ourselves and creating a game from it all. visual art becoming an entertaining gesture. what if the history is connected to location. local history, making that what has been done important again by placing an object of value on a hill.
what of those in the small circle that try to be aware of themselves in the time that they live in. what of those? are they able to bare witness to possible futures? what if a large circle member has already done all that. will the small circle member still be able to make a contribution. agh but there are the keepers of the circles. the keepers who keep. keeping what is beknown to those and mysterious to others. thus keeping entry to the big circle safe, so that the large circle does not become full of people, wanting to make statements and be heard. and as a member of the small circle, the emergence of knowledge of the other place has to be played down as if it’s excitedly exclaimed, heads turn away and murmurs made.
being alive is fantastic. being aware is even better. knowing i’ve rejected where i came from to allow myself to be here now is amazing. athletes get coached on self talk. i’ll stick to making stuff. god bless those in the large circle.
