I want to challenge myself. I need to stop sticking to the same frame of work and throw myself in the deep end. People just expect a certain style of art from me; They know what I’m going to produce, and they know that I’m just going to draw small detailed portraits using biro pen. Why is that so wrong? Should I be mixing up my art work more? Am I not allowed to have my own style? Am I not allowed to stick to using the same media? I’m not really sure. All I know is that I love working with biro pens, and people aren’t surprised by my art work anymore. I want to shock people. I want a positive reaction from people. I want people to gaze at my drawings in amazement.
This is why I am challenging myself to not only one, but two 6ft drawings. Yes, of course I am drawing them using biro pen, but I’m not drawing them A5 size… I’m drawing them 6ft! I want people to walk into a building and be able to see my drawings from the other side of the room. I want people to stand back and admire my drawings in awe and admiration. I want people to be able to see all of the time and effort that I put into my drawings. I have 7 months to produce these two portraits of my Dad. 7 months to show everyone that I CAN push myself. 7 months to astonish everyone. I like my style of art, and I am extremely proud of how far I have come since I first started drawing with biro pens 5 years ago, so why do people still want me to differentiate my artwork? Is becoming an artist about discovering your one love towards a particular media or style? Or is being an artist about forever experiencing new techniques and mixing up styles?
Am I even an artist?
I want to be my own person. I want to produce the style of art I want to produce. I want people to stop asking questions about my art and just look at it. I want people to stop telling me what I ‘should’ be doing differently. I will improve myself. I will become a better artist. I will show everyone that I can do better. I will draw larger. I will make people enjoy my art. I will work harder. I will draw for longer. I will spend more hours at University. I will complete these two portraits. I will show everyone I can work larger. I will challenge myself. I will graduate University with a Fine Art degree. I will succeed.
