after a short break, ive jumped straight back into studio work, working out planning and making my final piece for my dgree show.
i come up with the idea of looking at outside inside, how we are made and how we are judged by our appeciances on the oustside.
so thats when i started playing with making skeletons from potassium the chemical reaction between the chemical, the water, and the air reminded me of our connections and ties with others and our enviroments.
i knew i wanted to make something big to fully submerse the audience within the piece, forcing them to confrount their own human flaws.
i decided on a photogram on the other side to display the outside, because of the contrast between the two sides and the way a photogram can be so vauge yet show up the smallest details.
i decided to make a piece that was hung in mid air that people could walk through.
Through out this blogging process, i have found it helpfull to logically anailyse my thoughts and ideas through out my work and thinking process.
I have also found it helpfull with aranging ideas and because i am looking at each piece of work twice, once in real life and once on here its helping me see when work has come to a natural end and which work could be progressed further.
in the second half of the blog i am going to start narrowing down my ideas for my degree show and start making the final pieces towards that.
to begin with i thing i was getting to caught up in the process of my work, but to me process is a very important part of any work. i like my flaws and i want the viewer to see how the work was made. not work that looks like it has been stampted out of a machine. so i belive that the process is half the piece, i want my viewers to undersatand the process as much an the work its self.
Although i feel that i have improved with critically analysing my work rather then focusing on the process, i still have a lot more to do in the following months leading to the finalaty of the course.
Within my work i explore new ideas just by simply making, trying and doing them. This is then how i develop thease ideas, when they are made and infrount of you i find that it is then easier to see where that idea is going and what it can turn into.
As for looking and reaserching other artists i find the best way to connect with the artist is to first learn the story and the principle behind their work, and then to have a go at experimenting and trying to recreate the artists methords bit in my own style.
within my creative process when i come up with an idea i immediatly jump into making whatever i have thought of, normally with very little thought before hand. although this is sometimes the best way to just let my creative loose. it sometimes causes me to make silly mistakes like not waxing a mold and in turn breaking the piece trying to get it out.
i tend to find that even though this can sometimes take twice the amount of time, i learn to stop and think about it and in turn learn from the mistakes and can most of the time create a better piece because of it.
i know this is a fault of mine and that i rush into things too much, but sometimes it can be an advantage as sometimes the mistakes can add something to the piece that wouldnt have been there before.
my dissertation i wrote about risk, this features within my practical work due to the materials i use and features within my concept. due to the fact when artists cause risk to themselves and deform themselves in the name of art this then lets people see them in a different way and lets them feel and see how people that have had deformitys since birth feel on a day to day bases.
during this i looked at how risk can affect the audience in different ways unexpected risk, and expected risk. some of the artists i looked at that caused risk within their work were chris buren and Maria Abramovitch who both use methords of self mutalation within their work Buren gets friends to shoot him, nail him to the bonnet of cars, and crawls over glass, all causing scars and trauma to the body both mentally and physicly.
“On the ridge where the great artist moves forward, every step is an adventure, an extreme risk. In that risk, however, and only there, lays the freedom of art.” (Camus, A. (2013).)
one of the quotes i used within my dissertation, i really love this quote because it says to me that you cant compromise your work and what you believe in because it might involve risk, either politicly, physicly or involving law and career.
you should be true to your work, and your self.
“There’s no such kind of a logical ending in dealing with pain. I create a structure in which I can go far into the physical limits that a body can take. I don’t want to die. That is not the purpose. I want to experience the edge and how much I can take to this edge.” (Abramovic,M. (2008).)
I like this quote and think its relevant to my work, thinking about people who struggle with deformitys and the pain they feel physically and emotionally each day.
within my work so far i have been looking at the human form and the flaws within it, i suppose my intrest stems from a personal point of view due to the fact i damaged my spine when i was 15. it healed incorrectly causing Scoliosis – a medical condition in which a person’s spine is curved from side to side. Although it is a complex three-dimensional deformity, on an X-ray, viewed from the rear, the spine of an individual with scoliosis can resemble an S, rather than a straight line.
My scientific interest stems from my fathers influance as a rocket scientist, and being brought up with chemistry sets and experiments, this then led me to study my sciences at a level along with my art and eventually choosing art at university.
so technically im deformed although you wouldnt know it from looking at me, which is why i started thinking about how people do get judged on their deformity because it is visible and how really we are just made from the same elements, the same chemical make up that is out of our control.
