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What a Day!! Last proper day of university, and it was full of last minute touch ups to paintings and a lot of stress, touched with excitement and a lovely camaraderie between fellow students. I spent a fair bit of time photographing some last minute work as my printer decided to die recentlyt!! So…i was in the library computer room printing off paintings from my memory stick. Not really what I needed as I had studio floor to paint and several paintings that I wanted to tweak!Despite all these things, I did manage to accomplish the things I had set out to do today. I have included my ‘self portrait’ into my degree show. This was not my initial idea, but after some positive feed-back from some tutor’s I felt more comfortable about it. It really is an important painting for me. It is really stepping out of my comfort zone. However, the painting is full of how I saw myself. It is quite personal and although people looking at it might not fully understand the meaning behind the painting, for me it was important to convey’my’ feelings. It is very hard to share one’s feelings and experiences with everyone…but I don’t think peeople will ‘get’ the painting without some knowledge of the reason why I painted it. For some time I was torn between two men in my life. The triangle is symbolic of this situation and the confined dark room represents how I felt. Alone with this problem. It’s not one you can easily bring up in casual conversation. The situation resolved itself, and life moved on, but not without leaving a powerful memory behind. I believe this painting was an exorcising experience and I feel when I look at it, despite its naieve qualities speaks far more loudly than my other work