So I have booked the white installation for this week and next week – and spent the majority of today sat on the floor, in a corner of the space surroundedby paper bars.
Sitting in the space waiting for Amanda to bring me a cuppa tea surrounded by these paper bars I started to feel a little bit lonely. I had been in the space from about 10am this morning and had spent at least an hour and a half building the caged environment. Whilst creating I hadnt really felt anything because I was concentrating on building and excited about what the structure was going to look like once complete. But once it had all been built and I was sat in the space for half an hour waiting and wondering how long Amanda would be … I began to feel other emotions. I felt trapped, scared, and a great sense of vulnerability. I felt trapped like an animal (which is good as this was the main point to the whole experiment … and because i was waiting for Amandait was as almost I became an animals in a zoo. As John Berger says in his book Why Look At Animals? that animals in zoos become almost dependent on their keepers, I almost became dependent on Amanda getting there so I could leave. The amount of people that are walking past the door is amazing but made me feel quite vulnerable because only a handful of people (as in 4) who knew what I was doing and it got me thinking about how silly I was going to look if someone came in.
After about half an hour of just sitting on the floor … waiting … Amanda turned up and I crawled out of my cage. I think I should of sat there longer .. . but I think I definitely need something to do whilst in the space as it gets quite lonely and boring.
I would currently love to show you some images of the space yesterday and what I have done today as well as some stills from the films I took … but my computer doesnt seem to want to pick up the sd card.
For now though, I’ll put up some images I captured using my mobile from inside my cage. (The wonders of masking tape and parcel tape – lets hope it stays up).
