I have been discussing with my lecturers about what I plan to do in my degree show. I have come up with an idea which I may or may not use for my final degree piece. I really want to put across to the audience my emotions and how I feel about myself and my looks. This is something really personal to me and I want that to come across. I am really trying to break down the barrier that I put up on a daily bias. So it is important to put myself out of my comfort zone and show to people that this is a really issue I have every day and I hope that other women will relate to my feelings and thoughts. I am self-reflecting in the videos and I am being the male gaze upon myself I and judging myself as an object. I am trying to make myself pleasing to my own eye so I feel more comfortable in myself and that is what I want to show in my work.
What I plan to do is make two videos one of me removing my makeup and the other one of me putting on my makeup. I will play the two videos separate and play them from two different projects. I will also put the videos on a loop and may also reverse part of them so at some point in the video there will be a point where I will look the same in both videos. Both images at one point will be of me pausing and looking at myself from both sides without my makeup on. I haven’t decided yet if I should make the projections life size or bigger so it adds more of an impact to the audience or would they relate more if I was life size. I plan the video to be full size me from head to toe; I will be wearing either plan underwear or some pale simple clothes. I haven’t decided if I will use the edge of the wall or not, from playing around with the projector I don’t think I really like using the edge of the wall or not, I am also not sure yet if that works.
