Reflection! Lets start from the very beginning…
The swollen images I posted in blog post 18 are photographs of my flesh in a different state. Through out my project I have been looking at my flesh in different ways and thinking about the variables that can give me things to experiment with.
During my project proposal I thought about how I see my flesh.
– In reality (in which case I can never see some areas of my own flesh e.g my face).
– Reflected in a mirror.
-In a photographic image.
My painting ‘Are Those Yours Or Mine?’ plays with this in a way which is more humorous and on reflection has not got the same strong emotional context as my later paintings.
However, this painting is one of my most important in terms of what I set out to do.
This was one of my first paintings in my project.
-It’s my flesh
-I experimented painting with my hands.
-Rendering flesh using my flesh.
To me it feels like my flesh and I feel a connection to the mark-making and the paints language.
In my project I have also looked at how flesh can be distorted and manipulated to alter the way we see it. This lead me to digitally combine images of my flesh – mutilated and deformed.
Not my flesh as I usually see it.
Still focusing on a feeling of wanting to escape and a feeling of being trapped.
I began to work on a canvas, intended to be titled ‘Melded Flesh’. It has not reached the stage of paint yet. There has been something holding me back.
-I think it needs to be bigger. Lifesize.
– I need more freedom for mark making. My marks will be very tight on this scale.
Too Cramped.
