blog blog, when to blog
for those about to rock we salute you. AC/DC have a line for it, an advertising exec will have a line too, just when to tell someone about something you've just done, when it's so fresh there's a feeling of something that's hard to describe but you know it's there and you look for a release. Is that the point to rush to your blog and tell the world, get it out there, splurt, shout, whatever one needs to do. I've done some editting of some footage shot back in the summer. I'm excited by it, is that what it's about, that excitement, that moment of rush, a feeling above the background level of feeling.
Is that the essence of studying a creative process, when you get excited, that's when you'll want to rush into a crit and enthouse about what you've been doing, even though you known that the staff aren't into what you're into, and let's face it, that's the point at which studying a creative process becomes hard work and very demoralising. I wonder, do staff on creative courses leave their personal preferences at the door each morning and have the larger picture of the benefit to the student in mind.
For now, I know that I've begun working towards that presentation as soon as we start back, that recap of the last bit of the second year, that recap of the summer, the recap of those lazy days of idealogical thinking and feeling anything is possible.
When to blog ? I'd say whenever it feels like something you want to do.
settling into some experimentation.
it's so unnerving still for me. I like looking at the world for what it is, celebrating on the inside the little moments of other people's lives. Doing the documenteur stuff fuels that obsession.
In Fine Art, that obsession seems to have little time. There is another thread of thought, of obsession. Leaving alone the disappointment of how FineArt seemingly encourages the dilution of what the core obsession is, I've been playing again with some stuff what I shot over the weekend, it's very early on in the process, and I do have to say that there is time to spend on developing a thread of thought, while on the degree. It seems to be fundamental, that the time spent thinking and trying is actually more important than what comes out of it at the end(well more to the point-the end thing exists because of the journey to the end) I can see now that's a misunderstanding I had during the second year. I put that down to experience because of age and having to learn in my own way-due to the disability. I'm feeling left out on the picture front, so will add a work in progress shot from my experimentation.
I was thinking about art the other day. The word that is.
Art existed in 1932. Does it exist now, research might show that it does not. Has art subverted intself to the point that it no longer, in a pure form, exists. If it doesn't exist, then what are we all playing at? Is it some subverted sub construct of a once noble thing. Why do we have to explain what our art is by placing a pronoun before the word that it's all about. Wow, I write that and there is almost a worshipping connertation to the image conjoured in my mind. OK, art is what ever you now want it to be. I'm happy with that. I might be happy with that, but what of those that already have more time with it than me, art and it's constructs that is, what might they think of it. Agh, but hang on, with a conversation hanging just as a 2 dimensional memory, the third party merely picks up on rumours. So how does anything ever really get communicated and thoughts provoked. Agh , I see, art doesn't exist.
10….9…….8
just a sequence of numbers, or a particular date for particle physicists ?
A good day today for particle physisicts, for me it's the beginning of the third year, in effect, and still 2 1/2 weeks to enrollment.
While I have time to waffle and enjoy getting used to the blog site, I can of course amuse myself with musings of the day. There are some many constructs around me that making something myself seems a little irrelevent. The notion of my making something might benefit man kind is some what of a tall order and maybe best left to circular scientists. Well are they circular, as actually they are moving forward, no economic circular ness ness at all. Thorntons chocolate has year to date profits of 19% higher than last year, they don't need to care how it all began.
It was very reassuring to get an email yesterday with an outline of the final year. I am slow to comprehend, so it gives me time to take it all in and beging to have an appreciation of the structure that the third year will be. Obviously in my own way i'll do my own thing anyway and that's where the anxsts and lost sleep will start.
At a personal level, names are important and I've gone back to my full name as it will please my mother and for me represents the struggle to be myself after being behind a construct. I am happier as a result, despite the down days.
I woonder if I have an y jaffa cakes left to have with a cup of tea…oh for a count down.
having succesfully achieved take two, I do feel able to continue.
time for a cup of tea and a jaffa cake.
