what lights me up?
getting back from being in a playing field with a video camera and a bottle of water and a teaspoon, feeling out of breath and knackered knowing there’s a cup of tea and re-fried mash and quorn balls with two poached eggs for lunch.
sitting with a friend discussing all manner of things just because we like doing that.
being aware of the possibilities of all things, simply by refusing to copy and doing something based on it, yet not the same as came before.
speaking with a small person.
using my informed position on a subject to add to a public discussion on that subject.
being aware enough of my views on a subject to stand my ground on a position, even though at first i am misunderstood.
being part of my own intelligent revolution.
well-made coffee.
going for a walk.
waking up with a feeling of achieved deep sleep and a smile.
seeing something that makes me stop and take time to take it in.
feeling enthusiastic about making something.
in theory, i guess that being alive and doing stuff would be enough to light up me up and the world around me. the reality of that is not quite that straight forward. i could put my anecdotal finger on why, however I will not as I’ve got an edit to do and a cup of tea to drink.
thank you rosanne for asking the initial question.
dear blog
it’s been 9 days since my last entry; please forgive me for i have been with thought and some other stuff that is as yet not understood.
i have spent time listening to module outlines and learning outcomes. they are the last set of these i will have to listen to for a while as as yet doing an ma is not on the horizon, maybe blue sky thinking will develop a horizon once the present course is completed.
coming down after the written assignment completion is complete, i think. were there several exchanges with other students on this blog structure involving unhappiness and discontentment? if there was, the passing of difficult assignments has returned me (us?) to a comfortable place and so any on-going complaints or expression of disappointment are now not necessary. phew: a quo.
in my studio practice work in new media, the on-going need to develop ‘what it is’ so i can sell myself in the pre-ordained manner necessary to ‘get on’ looms headily large and very close to me. it’s presence slightly over whelming me. a chance discussion with the senior lecturer yesterday helping a little to scale down the problem.
the problem being that of moving onto another piece of making. the notion of finally resolving the first thing to move to the next. the thoughts about the exhibition of work in the summer, that thing they call the degree show. that thing which is the culmination of three years work, publicly that is, in real terms the display of the most critically successful work, as outlined by the module. what will it be like nearer to when the proposal for the exhibition is required? i don’t know, time to wait and see.
the advice given to me to get through my doubt and torn feeling is to make, to make and to make.
and on that note. i’m going to make a cup of tea.
much love
from androooo.x
