waiting for shoes that turn out to be as the first seteven though there was assurance that they would fit.
yes disappointment at ill fitting shoes. shoes that fit are good, not going into detail, we all can make that informed choice for ourselves.
had a session on dissertation this morning, interesting subject, dissertation, i would if you could do a dissertation on the concept of dissertation. there are some questions left with me and as such will be left with me, there are tea and cakes to be had instead of reading about questions. despite tiredness, my mood remains positive and upbeat. The beginning of the third year challenging my confidence and as such slight wobbles appearing and not like those on a bicycle with no hands on the handle bars.
more experimentation last night. I do like sharing little experiements on here, it is such fun. fun experiements lead to confident building hugs and that's lovely as hugs are great and comforting and after all it's good to be able to walk further.
monday afternoon and i should go shopping
no food in, no loan in yet either, ticked the wrong box, corrected now, waiting for the letter to confirm funds.
been into the studios this afternoon, good to see some large sketches forming a narrative in the stair well, finally the prescribed stale ness of the 'new' building is being challenged in a polite manner.
there is already stuff appearing on the walls around the studio. the vibe that produces is a good one and i'm envious of those in year one as it feels like there is a much more togetherness and direction, than in years gone by.
my study continues, returned to an idealist theory i've been harbouring and researching for sometime, i do that every so often then have a big talk about it and decide i can't yet resolve it so leave it be and drink coffee with strange sandwich combinations. today was sun dried tomatoe, mushroom and pickle. i was disappointed that the server failed to make a comment, however the combination was surprisingly pleasent on the palent.
tomorrow is crit time for me. been really scared of that whole thing in the past. which is evenitable if work being made is coming from deep personal things, let's face it who in their right mind would expose inner things to people they barely know, and i saying in an arual way, not in some 2d/3d representation.
i have stuff binging around my head to do with journal 1,2,3 and am aware of the need to aportion thought in appropriate book and still hang on to the original want to create. the prescribed method of assesment somehow posing problems itself as well as the research and making. i guess if it was easy, there would be more people doing it and the value of degree would itself be subverted. heaven forbid that ever happened.
coming to the end of the first week.
settling into the rythem of the university by staying at home while it all sorts itself out, used to it now.(so ignored the email to stop being so noisey)
worringly i do have a very fundamental question binging around my head today, i'll deal with that next week.
enjoying the research for my practice, found a chap to converse with via email today, the initial excitement of hearing his speech was not quite born out by the email exchange, i am of course an idealist, is berger still knocking about, i wonder if i could speak with him.
initial dissertation notes left to do as finally i have my space in some sort of order in which i am happy and can work. need to work on some more red herrings.
oh wow, had a browser moment, text disappeared, managed to get it back.
oh coming up to my 4 o'clock, if only i had some jaffa cakes, umm corner shop is around the corner…..tum tee tum.
into the third year and a good time to be in banking.
two days back into the third year and already i've got to 20:30 and tiredness hitting, has taken me 10 minutes to work out how to post a post.
with my learning difficulty now known about and understood, the early days of semester are not as scarey and stressful as all the others-phew. modules outlines beginning to be understood, initial crit/tutorial/catch up this afternoon, was enjoyable and actually rather good to do. had summer work looked at and smiles and nods and yups, so that was nice.
this evening I've managed to eat and watch the news while waiting for berger. The rescue of the banking collapse in the land that if it was a child would be a small spoilt child – whoops america, is a little like waiting for presentation dates to be confirmed, obviously i had to mention the bank in this blog and i did have to laugh as the banking community go through the motions on mainstream mass media, with the seemingly impossible question of what next being bandied about and seemingly things being picked out of the air. if it goes to plan the amero will be rolled out and america will be helped out by neighbours north and south, that is of course totally anecdotal and in no way was a lama hurt even though i did forget about the lama either.
experimentation continues as does attempting to paint radiators
two days to go to enrollment, brake shoes of smaller diameter, radiators of frustrating painting, this mature student thing is tough.
i continue to experiment, it's play just a little more serious as i now have a topic on which the playing surrounds. the summer is coming to an end, another phase of evolution about to happen. i certainly take umbridge with the mainstream insurer claiming as change happens, it;s evolution i say, change is premeditated, thought about and talked about before implimentation and once the implimentation has occurred, a period of further discussion to settle stuff into what it's become.hence so called change with no prior discussion is not change, simply evolution, in which case there are people evolving other people's lives, why oh why do the other peoples , as the french might say, "NON: nous somme ne happy pas"
onto the post office to post the parcel.
