Out of my hands. It’s like being in a school exam, finishing early and then having to sit in silence, wondering why everyone else is writing so much more than you. Flicking through the pages, looking for that question you missed, and generally sweating until the time’s up.
I don’t think I could have done much more, to be honest. I’ve worked very hard this term, and even on things that I really had no business bothering with! I did enjoy the work as well, particularly getting myself into a fit of the giggles painting individual chest hairs. Yes, I’ll freely admit that. All I can do is hope that I did an adequate job of explaining myself and the work during the crit, and beforehand to the tutors. I do feel like I’m missing out on the chance to see everyone else’s work during their crits next week.
As for the paintings, I’m happy with my experiment. I feel as though I’ve come a long way because of it, and know which direction I need to head in as well. I’m starting to see my trip home as a real holiday, as a chance to get off the treadmill and float for a while. Over the break I hope to do some watercolour paintings and drawings, and see how they integrate with the work I’ve just completed. Although when I’m in Barbados, it’s the architecture that I find most exciting… I may end up just with drawings of beautiful buildings. I don’t mind. I’ll be working on my dissertation, so I should do myself a favour and just draw and paint for the fun of it. What a radical idea!
I had a bit of time, post-hand-in, to focus on my website at last. After going through the process of setting up a site as a writing portfolio, I figured out how to do it via my main website – so now I’ve got a duplicate site, but I guess it doesn’t matter. What I do need to do is actually get more writing finished! I’ve tarted up my website with my latest images, and I think it looks much better. Still unsure about my paintings as the main image, but it’s better than before. I’m just wondering about how much of my older work to include; I suppose I’ll have to look at it for a while and see how it feels as it is.
I’m not sure how often I’ll be posting whilst I’m away, but there’s sure to be lots to cover by the start of term!
