The feelings I had at this moment in time came flooding back as I engaged with the paint. The chance image created during the work on the larger canvas and later by dividing it into several smaller pieces, has been exaggerated into a frightening figure from my past. By pouring on alternate dark and light colours, letting them run over puddles of water and then emphasising certain marks with a small brush and bits of paint-drenched card, I began to imagine myself back in another time and place. Lastly I began to scrub out some areas – wiping out the memories? and to drag my fingers through the wet paint – trying to escape.
Here are a couple of close-ups of the image.
Maybe there is a sense of the tension and fear I felt at the time?
Not sure if the painting works generally but it does make me shiver a little so perhaps getting closer to what I want my paintings to achieve
