Feeling precarious!
The penultimate term has ended, we have a two week ‘break’ to complete our disseretations which are due in on the 25th July. It’s then full go on our MA show work, in our exhibition spaces until our final deadline on the 30th August. The show then opens on the 2nd of September.
I have no idea how I feel. The term ended rather oddly, I mentioned it had a kind of false ending feel about about, everyone moved out of the large MA studio that we’ve shared since October and disbanded into their new spaces. I feel slightly empty right now.
I feel mega under pressure, I have made good progress on my writing and my work for the exhibition, but I am mega wary about post September time when I graduate. I like to have things planned and in motion, but thus far, there is nothing and that is worrying me. Do I stay in London? I hope so. Do I go elsewhere? Maybe, but I feel as if I should stay here and see if I can survive somehow. After my BA I was mega naive. I probably still am, I have a fair bit of experience of life outside of the institution as I practiced as an artist for 5 five years before doing the MA. So I am under no illusions, I have also learned so much this year and am better at going about things than I was before. I believe in what I am doing, and I think I need to remind myself of that sometimes. I guess I’ve come a long long way from the guy who decided never to go to university and to work full time in a supermarket back in the year 2000. I think I’m in a bit of panic at the moment. I had my 29th Birthday the other day and I started wondering where my twenties had gone.
Enough of that though. I met the external examiner the other day, and had a one to one. He was great and has a studio in Bristol. We had a really great conversation about my work and about Bristol and studios. He asked me what he would see when he externally assesses my MA show, and I said ‘constructed precariousness’. He wrote that down. I also had a really good assessment feedback form from my tutorial last week.
My tutor suggests that my recent experiments with tower structures as a way of both referencing architectural forms and displaying large paper-based drawings are quite promising. I will have to consider the relationship between sculptural form and pictorial image and, perhaps, experiment further with my selection of materials, considering how their inherent properties might shape the reading of the work. We discussed the placement of the work and the possibility of using spotlights in our tutorial, I need to consider the selection of these lights carefully and how they might be integrated into the work itself, perhaps builders lights. I have a growing interest in the Tower of Babel and the disastrous demise of grand projects such as Titanic, Hindenburg, and 9/11.
