I find The process of writing  and making a body of work painful, because it requires a great deal of introspection and reflection of the self. (A tenure that hurts me). 

The Method of Tombstones and Graves

The nature of my work is (I feel) very bad, because it’s about unearthing matters I don’t want to deal with or have others caught in it basically (- I buried it for this reason!). Even though the professional life resembles a marble tombstone with fancy writing; the personal life at the moment is a grave, (I get all the creative dirt from there. Creativity from my experience, is a very messed up system similar to method acting – The Method where one has to alter their entire psyche just to make work, so to write. It’s a horrible process). Made me think of the correlation: are people who work in creative fields more predisposed to succumbing to the stereotypes portrayed by the media and historical creative figures?

Where are all the female (and/or minority) authors?

[minority could be interpreted as the literal term, or Deleuze and Guattari’s term.]

My writing usually ends up sounding more aggressive than speech, which is terrible – I want to be a decent person at the end of the day and do the right things. But I think it’s because I’ve read more from male academic authors. A deeper analysis is that I think male authors are more recognised, so I was able to encounter the books more easily in institutions, but even the female authors have adopted a male voice or the voice of Jung’s concept, logos. (why is Eros on mute?). 

It [Eros] is not form-giving but form-fulfilling; it is the wine that will be poured into the vessel; it is not the bed and direction of the stream but the impetuous water flowing in it. ~Carl Jung

 

I’m today’s climate, the impetuous water is drying up like the canals of Venice.